Partnered Up Again ::Blake::

[John Blake]

More tears fell down his face as he saw her. He whispered her name and limped to the side of the bed, dropping to his knees next to it, not caring as white fire raced through him as pain erupted from his knee. He whispered her name again, taking her hand in his, pressing it to his lips and laying his head on the bed next to her, his eyes closed as his tears wet the bed. His eyes squeezed shut, and his shoulders shrugging with his silent sobs...

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[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia didn't move besides a small flutter of an eyelash. She heard his sobs, felt his hand, heard his whisper, felt his pain. Agent Smith's eyes flickered and she ran her thumb across the palm of his hand. "Are you crying?" she asked softly in a hoarse voice, her eyes flickering towards him.

[John Blake]

He felt her thumb move, but he could look up and see her still dead... He didn't believe it when he heard her voice but looked up to her face anyways, only to see her beautiful blue eyes. "You're alive...?" He whispered softly, a jolt of hope spreading through him as he looked deeply and gently into her amazing eyes. She was alive. He didn't lose her. She. Was. Alive.....

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia smirked, "No," she joked, "I'm a ghost come back to haunt you, of course I'm alive." She frowned, "You thought I was dead? Her blue eyes narrowed slightly, she didn't understand, not even the slightest.

[John Blake]

Tears fell down his face as she continued to speak, that it wasn't just a cruel dream. He felt more tears streaming down as he moved himself closer to her. "You, you were shot...." He whispered, pain and relief in his voice. He looked softly at her, his muddy eyes wet with tears.

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[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia nodded, "I know...it hurt like hell...it still hurts like hell." She sighed slightly and winced when she turned to look at him. "But you thought I was...dead?" She didn't know that her heart had stopped several times, she didn't know anything.

[John Blake]

He nodded, another volley of tears sliding down his face. "I've been listening to your heart stopping all night..." He whispered, pain in his voice. His tormented heart, felt like it would burst with the pain of remembering listening to the machines blare, over and over again and not even being able to go see her. "I thought....I thought I'd lost you..." He whispered, looking at her again.

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[Amelia Raven Blake]

She moved her hand to his face to brush her thumb across his cheek. Her thumbs removed the tears from his cheeks. She had died...several times...according to Blake. She looked away after brushing away more of his tears. "I'm sorry...actually no, I'm not sorry. You're worth saving."

[John Blake]

He didn't flinch as she wiped away his tears, though he would have normally felt weak, but not now. Not this time. "I'm not worth you...and I never will be." He whispered softly, and he meant it. It would not be his goal to protect her, whenever he could, no matter how much pain it brought him. He promised himself, if she asked him to walk on a bed of coals, he would as shoes or not. If she asked him to jump, he would respond with how high. If she asked him to thrust a dagger through hiss chest, he would say...what knife? He shook these thought from his head, and moved his hand gently to her chin, tilting it towards him. "I'm not worth you..." He whispered, his muddy eyes locking on her azure blue ones softly...

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[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia locked her eyes with his. "John, listen to me...you mean the world to me, if you ...died...I'd quit the force...you're the only person I would want..need...as my partner..." She cupped his cheek and brushed his tears away.

[John Blake]

He nodded at the force of her words, but he had a set he knew could beat what she said....and he knew he had to say it... "Amelia, you are the only partner I need, and the only one I could ever want." He whispered, secretly loving her hand on his face. But he took her hand away from his cheek and wrapped his fingers gently on hers. "Amelia, if I lost you....I'd quit life..." He had said it..... and he meant it....

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[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia shook her head, "John, that's sweet, but don't say that...I'd never want you to do that...never..."She murmured looking into his muddy brown eyes, the eyes she loved..the eyes of the man she loved but refused to tell him. She sighed, "You can't give up if i'm gone..."

[John Blake]

He shook his head sadly, letting his eyes drop for a moment. When they returned to her, he said three little words, those words carried a lot of meaning, and he had never said them to another person, not to anyone, but her. And he meant it, with all of his sole, and all of his heart...

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[Amelia Raven Blake]

Those three words took Amelia by surprise. She stuttered for a moment before looking away. "John...I...I...I'm not ready...for another relationship...I'm sure Gordon explained what happened...I...I just....I...." She looked away, tears welling in her eyes because she really did love him...but she wasn't ready to trust anyone with her broken heart. Not yet. She didn't know if she'd ever be ready. But she hated hurting John. Hated it. "I'm sorry."

[John Blake]

He nodded, heart fallen at her words. Gordon had explained, but it still hurt like nothing else ever could. He let his eyes drop from hers, not wanting her to see the hurt there. It felt as if he had handed her his heard, but she had only pretended to catch it. Letting it fall to the ground to shatter, and leaving him alone to bend down to pick up the shards...only he knew not all of them would be where he looked for them. He regretted saying those three words now, it had only hurt him, though he had meant them... "Just......if you change your mind.....I'll be....I'll be waiting..." He whispered, not able to hold back the heartbreak and hurt in his voice, though he tried....

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