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Post by steverogers on Jul 4, 2012 22:07:36 GMT -5
He had an agent tape the note to the punching bag for Sam to find. Dear Miss Samantha Winters,
No words can describe the pain I feel. Perhaps I'll never be able to describe it, but at least I can give you some peace. That day will forever be my nightmare. It pains me to have seen those tears on your face and knowing that it was my fault just makes it worse. I don't think I'd ever be able to face you again without feeling weak at the knees and crashing to the ground, unable to utter a word of sorry and regret. I'm sorry. I guess it's all that I can say, even though nothing helps I'm sure.
I'm sure you hate me...Broden says that last time she had sit and make sure you didn't grab a knife...you may see wet splatters on the paper near here because as I write this...I'll admit I'm crying because the thought of you killing yourself over me breaks my heart far worse then any bullet. I'm so sorry Sam...so so sorry...And I think I broke my heart along with yours. Because of this pain in my heart...I've requested you a new trainer, and I'm sorry...but there's another reason why I can't train you...I'm sitting in the hospital part of SHIELD, recovering from a run in with three villains, the raptor - Victor, the yellow lantern - Sinestro, and the destroyer - Sullivan....I guess I was a little reckless after I left that room that I'll never be able to return to without feeling tears in my eyes.
And Sam...(the paper here is too wet to see the words)
I'm sorry.
Yours, in regret,
Steve Rogers
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Post by thess on Jul 5, 2012 15:58:54 GMT -5
Sam was nto sure if she could face training with steve again , not now and not when her heart ached for him , for a reason why ? she wanted to know why she was dumped like that and in front of hailey , was he trying to humiliate her?.She honestly didnt know , not anymore but she would be strong and keep her heart still as this was her job , to work with him was part of her job.
When she entered the training room her heart ached and throbbed with pain as she remembered their first session and the kissing , the sweet words and talks of the future and now she just wanted to rip apart this room for being the place she heard those bitter lies. "im really gonna hate this room arent i " she asked herself softly and rubbed the few small tears that treathened to spill down her porcelain cheeks in a rough manner. "no no .. no more crying , no more needing broden to babysit me .. ill get stronger somehow " she muttered and pushed away the thoughts of her sister , steve and hailey but it was a lot harder when she saw a letter taped to the punching bag and she wasnt sure if first if she should read it but as always curiousity got the better of her. she sighed softly and sat down with the letter , maybe she should just quit if she couldnt even read a letter from him."god how can he make care so much even after he ripped my heart to pieces .. god damn it .. your an idiot mr rogers , a kind and sweet one but oh so cruel at the same time, making me love you only to be tossed out like yesterdays news "she said softly and read the last part of the letter and sighed heavily " victor i told you no .. god .. your such a strange person but yet i feel like you need someone that understands you " she said softly to herself and looked at her feet. "god ..i cant visit them . but i should send them something.. after all i cant hate them for loving each other " she mumbled out softly as she looked at the letter and saw the wet splotches ,he had been crying? why should he cry when he was the one who chose to leave her a part of her thought. "again with the lies mr rogers , you were never mine .. no matter how much i wanted you to be . you werent . you always belonged to her "
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Post by shay2 on Jul 5, 2012 16:11:01 GMT -5
Fenris walked into the room and almost hit his head on the ceiling. He swore softly and then spotted Sam. He'd just come from the hospital room, he'd been allowed into the room but knew as he stepped foot inside that Rogers wasn't doing well at all. The nurses were talking of him not making it through the night and the thought made Fen sigh and frown. He knew what Rogers had done to Sam...beautiful Sam, and for that the god wanted to punch him, but he could see the regret shining in the soldier's eyes.
"Hey. Sorry I'm late I was...erm..."
said Fen coming up behind Sam and placing his hands on her shoulders. He sighed when he got to the part where he was about to say were he had been. He didn't want to tell her that Rogers was suspected to die. He didn't want to hurt her more then she was already hurt. Before he'd left Fen had heard Steve murmur that he suspected he was dying of a broken heart...but why? Fen wondered, why was Rogers dying of a broken heart...why wasn't that happening to Sam? He didn't understand it. Did Rogers regret it that much?
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Post by thess on Jul 5, 2012 16:27:42 GMT -5
Sam wiped the tears before they could fall once more , she needed to stop crying over Steve and deal with it. She didn't get her happy ending but then again she never really got any happy endings before either so why would that change. She sighed softly and folded the letter and stuffed it into her pocket while she tried to regain what little strength she had to meet her new trainer, she only prayed it wasn't Natasha because that woman would probably break her in half before they were done.She jumped hearing a voice and exhaled slowly "good lord you scared me .. you're really sneaky " she said softly and put on a smile for him.
she felt a bit happier that it was her angel , the one who wanted to save her from victor when in truth was only helping her but it was a good and kind thing to do. She sighed softly as she had been feeling a bit weird after that night, like something was trying to dig its way out of her and it frightened her a bit but she didn't want to worry anyone. it probably was just her imagination kicking in and making her dream up things that weren't real.
"why the frown ? are you upset fenris?" she asked with a soft tone and turned to look at him."so your going to be my new instructor ? does that mean i get to learn how to handle a sword ?" she tried to distract herself from anything that involved captain america or mistress liberty, her heart just couldn't take it at the moment.
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Post by shay2 on Jul 5, 2012 16:34:33 GMT -5
Fenris sighed he didn't want to tell her, but she'd already caught his frown. He looked at his hands just as a shadow climbed up his arm and went around his shoulders. He scowled at the shadowy snake.
"Not now you crazy beast."
He scolded the snake as it looked at him with glowing ember eyes. It seemed to disintegrate. Fen shook his head in disgust. He muttered something along the lines of, 'stupid creature' and then replied to Sam.
"Sam.....not that you care or anything....but Rogers may not last the night....""
There he'd said it, and the frown on his face replaced the scowl that the snake had created. He looked at Sam. He didn't want to hear her response. Then why did he tell her? She didn't need to know. He instantly felt horrible. |
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Post by thess on Jul 8, 2012 8:17:17 GMT -5
"the shadows being disobedient ?" she asked softly and looks at him while running a hand trough her hair. " whats going on fenris?" she asked softly , her heart still aching with worry for Steve and Hailey , they had been friends , Steve would always be her first love. "fenris .. did you see Steve?" asks softly
Sam gasped as she heard him tell bout rogers , did he really think she didn't care if rogers lived trough the night , she loved Steve still and a part of her would always love him but she just didn't have the straight to show it. The thought that Fenris thought she could be so cold and heartless , made her feel so angry and offended "do you really think me that cold .. that i don't care if he makes it trough ? do you really think I'm that heartless ?" she asked with tears brimming in her eyes. "I don't think I'm up for some training today . if you excuse me sir .. i will head to my room .." he angry was only growing with each words she said and an agonizing pain went trough her body as something was happening to her but she didn't know what. she looked down at her hands and saw them covered in crystal clear ice. " what the hell is happening ?"she asked herself worried that something was wrong with her.
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Post by shay2 on Jul 8, 2012 11:43:25 GMT -5
"That's not what I meant, I just didn't know if you'd want to hear about it or not, it came out wrong I'm sorry. I didn't want to tell you, because I knew you were already hurting and I didn't want to hurt you more. That's all, I didn't mean that, it came out wrong."
Fen told her and then he saw her hands encased in ice. Did Sam have some power? He cocked his head, emerald orbs peering at her hands.
"Sam has this happened before?"
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Post by thess on Jul 8, 2012 12:27:18 GMT -5
"it sounded as if you meant it the way it came out .. i do care . i didnt want him or her hurt .. i just needed space from them . i didnt ask for this .. i never wanted them to end up in the hospital " her words were soft and weak like any minute it would disappear.her eyes filled with unshed tears that she tried so hard to keep back. "i dont want to be the villain here , yet i feel like i am .. like im the one to blame " she mumbled and the more she spoke and let those emotions out , the further her hand was encased in ice.
Sam felt panic creep up on her as more of her hands are swallowed by ice. her breathing was shallow as she felt more and panicked, she had half a mind to run from the run and finds some corner to hide in."please ..Feenris what is going on .i dont know whats going on " she whispered softly " its never happened before .. oh god ..please make it stop "
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Post by shay2 on Jul 8, 2012 12:42:19 GMT -5
Fenris went to her side and put his hands on her shoulders. "Hey, hey, don't worry. You're not the villain. Now i don't know what this is, but I'm going to help you, whatever it takes." He hugged her tightly and said, "Take deep breaths, just close your eyes and take a deep breath,"
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Post by thess on Jul 8, 2012 13:05:52 GMT -5
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It was so cold against her skin but still at the same time it wasnt.She looked at him and breathed fast and shallow." aah .. god ..i dont know whats hppening now " says softly and looks at him with fear and worry filling her eyes.
She sighed softly and trid to calm her breathing , taking nice and slow breaths."oh god " she tried to close her eyes and keep herself calm for the moment.She felt his arms around her and he was so warm and smelled so safe. "im scared fenris " she mumbled softly
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Post by shay2 on Jul 8, 2012 14:43:02 GMT -5
Fen held her against him, "Don't worry, we'll figure this out. Just continue to take some deep breaths." He gently ran a hand through her back, trying to calm her. He patted her back, hoping his tactics would work. "The doctors will make sure Rogers lives, got it? They wouldn't let him die on us. You got that?"
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Post by thess on Jul 8, 2012 14:53:23 GMT -5
Sam sighed and panted . her whole body felt cold and she felt like she had no control what so ever of her body but he was doing good at trying to calm her down , she began to feel a bit better as he held her close and patted her back , something her mother would do when she was crying."he has to .. right .. hes captain america .. " she mumbled out softly and took deep breaths but the ice was moving away from her hands and beginning to take a different form , molding itself into a small heart made of ice instead of covering her hands.
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Post by shay2 on Jul 8, 2012 15:11:24 GMT -5
"Hush, it'll be alright." Fen told her gently, looking down at her. How could he feel this way for her when he'd only just met her. He sighed and peered at her. He loved the way her hair fell across her shoulders, he loved how her eyes were the perfect mix of brown and green. But they'd only just met... |
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Post by thess on Jul 8, 2012 15:29:10 GMT -5
Sam sniffed softly and took a deep breath , her whole body feeling heeavy and tired."i feel so sleepy now "she said softly and yawned. "thank you for being here for me . i dont know you well but youve grown on me .. a lot " she mumbled softly and yawned.
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Post by shay2 on Jul 8, 2012 16:39:11 GMT -5
"That's what friends are for," Said Fen, stepping back a bit, but still holding onto her shoulders, looking into her eyes. "I knew you'd be an amazing person when I first sent my eyes on you." He told her with a smile. He couldn't tell her, she'd freak out or something. But then could he keep it a secret? |
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