The worst that could happen {Fury,Amelia }

[Clint Barton]

Clint Barton was still not sure what happened earlier actually happened. For not long ago he had watched his best friend and fellow agent ,Amelia Blake die in his own arms. It all seemed like a bad nightmare still to Clint. But it was the reality,Amelia had gotten hit by Clint`s very own arrow and died from it. For a moment Clint was sitting still,just staring out into the air. He was still wiping the tears from his eyes and cheeks,blaming himself for it ,that it all went down like it did. Now she was dead. One part of Clint was hoping that it all was a bad dream and that she would wake up again,that she would be okey ,but it was never gonna happen.

As Clint had gotten back to the Mansion, he knew that he had to inform the others about what had happen,but the first one he had to tell, was Nick Fury. Clint didn`t feel good at all, he was at one of his weakest moments right now.As he walked down the hall towards Fury`s office, he held the bow low from his grip,feeling a bit shaky still. As he stopped outside the office door,he took a deep breath to calm down. Clint didn`t even bother to knock on the door so he just opened the door and stepped inside.


He walked with slow steps ,searching the room for Nick until he spotted him. Clint was silent for a moment, "Fury..i ah..h-have something i need to tell you" Clint said with a trembling voice,but tried the best he could to keep it calm.

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia didn't regret going on that mission with Clint. She had died, yes, but in the arms of her best friend and that was the best way possible for her to go. She could still feel the pain as though the arrow was still sticking from her chest, but of course it wasn't. She was a ghost now, no one could see her and it was lonely. She just wished someone could see her.

After her death, Amelia had stayed with Clint, she needed to make sure that he was alright and wouldn't do anything rash, considering he blamed himself. But Amelia would never blame him, she had just been in the wrong place at the wrong time. It hurt seeing a usually high spirited man down in the dumps as Clint was at the moment and it hurt even worse as Amelia knew she was the cause to his melancholy behavior.

Sparrow watched him wipe the tears from his face and enter the mansion, going to the room where Nick Fury sat. His words trembled when he finally spoke and Amelia laid an icy cold hand on his shoulder, comforting him in a way, not thinking he'd feel it, considering she had only been a ghost for nearly an hour, it was normal that she didn't know he'd be able to feel her gentle touch.

[nickfury]

Nick Fury sat in the office and just place his first under his chin in silence…he couldn’t believe it. Minutes later Nick got a phone call from both Agent Hill and Agent Coulson confirming it. Nick felt that he was to blame himself for sending the both of them out there, just those two instead of backup. What the hell was he thinking? What kind of director of SHIELD was he? No…Amelia and Clint knew the sacrifices…they knew the risk…but Amelia didn’t deserve to die…not like this…so young and beautiful…she deserved much better than this.

Suddenly a voice interrupted his thoughts and looked up…it was Clint and boy did he look like a wreck. It took Fury not to cry and break down because he needed to stay strong for not only himself but SHIELD. “Clint” he said as he stood up and walked toward him. “It’s alright…please come in” he said, placing his hand on his shoulder and guiding him to his seat before handing him tissues. Nick then sat back down in his chair and looked at Clint. “I heard what happened Clint…I heard happen to Amelia and I know you didn’t intend to kill her” he said as he placed his hand on the desk. “I’m sorry Clint”

[Clint Barton]

Clint looked at Fury as he said his name.He walked a bit further looking at Fury still. He walked with him and took a seat ,accepting the tissues he offered. Clint sighed and had the sad look in his eyes. He looked at Nick as he spoke, and he had already gotten the message about what happened. Clint shook his head. "It was my fault i should have been more careful.." he said looking down at his feet. "Yeah..i`m sorry too..i just can`t believe that she`s gone.." Clint said.

He ran a hand over his face, trying to breathe calmly. He leaned back in the chair and looked at Nick. "Does the others know yet ?" Clint asked him. He wasn`t even sure that he could tell them himself what had happened if they didn`t know already. He clenched his fist tightly around the tissue in his hand. His bow layed on the floor beside him. "Fury..i`ve been thinking and i don`t know if i can do this anymore.." he said to him and licked his lips.

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia sighed, feeling the tears coming into her eyes, if that was even possible. She blinked them away, but several dripped down her face. "Oh Clint...I'm so sorry..." She thought back over the last few days, she had wanted to die...as strange and cold as it sounded Amelia Raven Blake hadn't wanted to live anymore.

It was even worse coming from Amelia, considering she had a beautiful daughter, Alyss Jay Blake and a wonderfully handsome husband, Robin John Blake. But she hadn't wanted to live, not after what had happened the night she stayed in SHIELD, the something that she hadn't told anyone. Before her death she had been pregnant with a boy, she was going to tell John on their anniversary, but then she had died.

However she wouldn't have been able to tell him since before she went on her mission she had miscarried. She had been devastated and cried herself to sleep for nights. She had been too sad to tell John or anyone else. That was the reason she didn't regret moving and getting hit with that arrow, she wanted to die, she was too sad to think past it and to the family she had. She just didn't think she would be that missed, one of the things that had rubbed off on her from years on the streets, she just didn't think anyone cared.

[nickfury]

Fury shook his head. “No…the other Avengers or anyone else for that matter knows about it. But I am going to meet with each one separately and tell them the news” he said. Each Avenger and others were close with Amelia, so telling all of them might not be a good idea but separately is much better. Though looking at Clint, it was like he needed to get something off of his chest or tell him something else. Clint did NOT think he could do this anymore and Fury kept a straight face…nodding his head. He can understand where Hawkeye is coming from but inside Nick disagreed.

“I think the other way Clint and I do not think you should give up and quit” he told the man. “All of us in this world are not perfect. We mess and screw up from time to time but we get back up and keep fighting” he said to Hawkeye. Fury expected something like this to happen from time to time, if it came from his agents of SHIELD of even some of the Avengers. “In my view…you need to stay strong and be Hawkeye, be a part of the Avengers still. I know I can’t force you to stay but everyone needs you…even I need you” he said.

[Clint Barton]

Clint looked at Nick as he spoke. He sighed softly"Okey..yeah i guess that`s easier to do " he sad to him. All Clint could picture was the image of Amelia in his arms dying. He closed his eyes for a moment. It was an image that wouldn`t be easy to erase, but he had to find a way to start dealing with it. It was going to be hard for him the next few days, and especially for John and Alyss. He couldn`t imagine how they were gonna feel about this.

He opened his eyes and looked back at Nick again. "Well i need you to understand that this is very hard for me..i need to process this..and right now i`m a mess i`ll tell ya" Clint said to him and bit down on his bottom lip. "And i will get back up and fighting Fury..i promise you that..but right now i need some time and space to deal with this" he said to Nick. Clint ran a hand through his hair and sighed heavily. "I want to be strong as Hawkeye..i do..and i want to be strong for Amelia too..but right now i don`t feel like i can do much " he said.

Clint stood up onto his feet and looked around,his eyes falling on is bow. "I need a drink right now.." Clint said started slowly walking away,leaving the bow on the floor along with the arrows.

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia sighed, her eyes on Clint. She put her hand against his shoulder when he rose, saying that he needed a drink. "Clint, I"m sorry...I'm so very sorry for doing this to you." She didn't know that her voice was projected around the room. "If there is a way...any way at all I'll come back...you guys aren't getting rid of me that easy."

She sighed softly, looking at his bow and arrows. She wished he would just pick them up. "It wasn't your fault Clint..."

[nickfury]

“I understand Clint. Take all the time you need but I just didn’t want to feel like pressuring you. You’ve been through a lot recently so like I said before…take all the time you need” he said to Clint. There’s a reason why some people fall and it’s because of the grief, the pain that everyone feels. You’re nothing and you don’t feel like your old self ; that’s what Nick could feel from Clint. He hopes that Hawkeye would not do anything stupid to risk anything. If Amelia was here, she would just try to help Clint but she wasn’t. She’s gone or better yet dead.

He watched Clint start to leave but just leave his arrows and bow behind. Nick wanted to tell him but it was better that he didn’t. Fury did not want to start a fight between him and Clint but anyway, Fury got up from his chair and picked up the bows and arrows, looking at them. But then he saw a sudden reflection, not of himself but Amelia. He turned around and looked behind him, not seeing anyone. Nick sat down and placed the arrows/bows on his table before closing his eyes and sighing. “I wish you were here Amelia” he said to himself.

[Clint Barton]

Clint sighed softly and nodded ,listening to Nick as he spoke. "Thanks man..i`m just gonna go and lay down for a little while..after i get my drink." he said and looked at him. Clint didn`t feel like bein surrounded by the other avengers right now, asking him if he was going to be okey or how he was feeling. This was just not a good day for Hawkeye to be at his best.


Clint walked towards the doors and when he was by the doors, he turned and gave Fury one more look ,seeing him picking up his bow and arrows from the floor,before he walked out of there and into the kitchen and looked through the cabinets for something strong to drink, but he didn`t find any bottle.

"oh come on..Amelia where did you hide the bottles..?" he asked out and remembered that Amelia had a habit of hiding the bottles away from Clint to mess with him. He still hadn`t found a bottle of whiskey,so he opened the fridge and found beer at least. He grabbed the bottle and brought it with him to one of the places where Clint usually used to hide out ,he climbed up and sat in a big window sill and looked at the view.

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia sighed, looking over at the director. She didn't even know she was doing it but found herself scribbling out a note to Fury. I'll find a way back, I promise Nicky. The pencil hit the table as she stumbled backwards, startled that she had been able to do that. A grin stretched over her face.

She could have so much fun with this.

Agent Blake followed Clint out, smirking when she heard his question. When he was gone, she got the whiskey bottle out and poured him a small glass. Very small. She put it away, hiding it again and went to where he was, setting it by him, grinning.