It's Alright to Cry (James)

[Alyss Jay Blake]

Alyss sat on the windowsill, a silent crystal tear rolling down her face. It had been a month. A moth without her mother.

There hadn't been a day she hadn't cried. There hadn't been a moment she didn't wish for her back. The pain of losing her was just too much for her.

She had seen her father with a gun to his head, something no child should ever have to see. Something that would scar her for all of her life.

She sat there, another tear rolling down her face, a teddy bear clutched in her lap, a box of tissues beside her and only her thoughts to comfort her...

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[James Wayne]

James entered his room where his girlfriend, Alyss Bake was sitting on his bed, looking out the windowsill. It had been a month since Amelia Blake had died and James felt horrible for his Little Jay Bird, his Alyss. He didn't know what she felt but he knew that he missed Amelia as well.

James Wayne's Bi-Polarness had died down since he'd met Alyss but of course it still came up now and then usually when he got mad at his parents or his siblings. "Alyss...baby...are you alright?" He came up beside her and wrapped his arms around her. "That was a stupid question..."

The Wayne boy ran a hand back through his pitch black hair, his icy blue eyes leveling on his girlfriend.

[Alyss Jay Blake]

Alyss didn't turn as her boyfriend walked into the room. On a regular day she would have jumped into his arms and been smiling and laughing.

But it hadn't been a normal day in over a month.

She didn't turn from the window at his voice. She didn't move to face him as his arms went around her. She didn't smirk as she once would have at his stupid question, it was almost as if he wasn't there at all, or that she was a statue.

After a few moment the cement that held her seemed to break. "N-No..." She managed in a choked voice, closing her eyes and looking down, another tear easing from her eye.

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[James Wayne]

James sighed. "Honey..." He kissed the side of her head. "It's alright to cry." He sat beside her and held her close to him. "I miss her too." He rubbed her back softly. "I love you..." He told her softly.

He had seen his father cry and his brother and mother, of course Alyss too, every day and he had done what little he could to comfort her, which didn't seem to help. He knew, however, that her father was fairing so much worse, according to Alyss she had seen him with a gun to his head.

[Alyss Jay Blake]

She had to refocus to hear what he had said. Her mind was in tatters. She would have scolded herself for letting herself get into this condition, but she just didn't care.

She didn't care that she hardly ate. She didn't care that she hardly drank. She didn't care that her hair was in knots. She didn't care that there were large dark bags under her eyes. She didn't care that her grades were dropping. She didn't care that any friends she had were leaving her. She didn't care that her new nickname at school was Freak loving cry baby. She didn't care that she was falling apart.

At first she had attempted to keep her dad healthy, eating, drinking, all of it. But she had given up after seeing the gun to his head. She would wake up screaming for her mother to stop him, or wake up in tears as her mind had made him pull the trigger.

She remained silent, her eyes still closed.

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[James Wayne]

James sighed, looking at Alyss with sad eyes. He tilted her face towards him and stroked her cheek with his fingers. "Oh Alyss..." He whispered, kissing her forehead. He pulled her into his lap, holding her close to him. He rubbed her back, wincing as he felt her spine, she wasn't eating well enough, nor was she drinking and she had dark bags beneath her eyes.

"Honey you need to eat..." he murmured, stroking her head, his fingers running through her golden blonde hair, the same color as Amelia's had been. He sighed softly.

[Alyss Jay Blake]

She let her move him, not able to meet his eyes when he stroked her cheek. Not able to show any affection back to him. She wouldn't have blamed him if he just stopped trying and left her. If he did then she would have to reason to stay and would be able to end it all without a single shred of guilt in her heart...

She let him pull her into his lap, wincing slightly as his fingers snagged on knots in her hair. She heard him, but only offered a shrug, as if it didn't matter to her, which it didn't.

She let herself lean back on him. She sighed knowing he could feel her bones, but she didn't really care. It was nothing compared to the pain in her heart....The agony of her emotions...She felt another tear slide down her face.

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[James Wayne]

"Amelia wouldn't have wanted you to reduce to this..." James sighed softly. He would make this right, he would find a way to bring Amelia back. He had to. For Alyss's sake. For John's sake. He kissed her face gently and said, "Alyss, do you remember Hel? She can bring people back to life. She can bring Amelia back. I know she can."

[Alyss Jay Blake]

Alyss sighed at his comment. But she isn't here....is she..... She thought sadly. She turned her head and buried it in his chest. The strong place of warmth she could always trust to protect her. She felt bad as her tears soaked into his shirt, beginning to roll down in a never ending stream.

She titled her head to look up at him at his next words. The faintest light of hope came up in her eyes. "H-h-how do you k-know she'll help?" She whispered in a strangled voice.

[James Wayne]

'No, she's not Alyss, not here in flesh and blood,'[/color] he whispered into her mind, only slightly ashamed to have been picking around in her head. "But here," he spoke aloud, pressing his hand to her heart, "here, she'll always been and I'm sure she's looking down at you and shaking her head in despair. You know her, Alyss, she'll be rolling over in her grave seeing you like this."

"I just know, Alyss, I just know. Trust me, honey, trust me." Alyss brought out a whole knew side to him, it was rather strange really. He pressed his lips to her forehead. "Trust me."

[Alyss Jay Blake]

She shook her head. Just speaking of her mother brought fresh tears. She couldn't handle it any longer. She leaned back on him sighing sadly. "James....I can't even bare this without her...Even if she is here." She put her hand over his. She didn't mind that he had been in her head. Not in the least.

But she believed it was over with her mother gone. She missed her very dearly, and she wondered if ever there would be a way for her to get her back... She sighed. Hel wouldn't help, would she? She didn't know...