Why Didn't You Tell Me? (-will-)

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia was making lunch for her son, William. She bustled around the kitchen humming to herself. She was humming the song she and John had danced to on their wedding day. Her frame was hugged by a simple grey v-neck and blue jeans. As usual there was an unpolished chain of silver around her neck. There were two rings, one simple silver wedding band and the other a band with three diamonds. They were both in need of polishing, but Amelia wouldn't have it. This was the way they had been when she found them. That's the way they would stay.

She went up the stairs, picking up the plate of pasta and sliced chicken. She usually didn't make it for lunch, but this was her son. She knew they didn't have the best relationship but she wanted to make it up to him and actually be a good mother to him. She sighed softly and brushed a curled strand of her blonde hair from her face. She had curled it that morning, testing out the new curling iron John had gotten for her. She knocked on the door of his room. "Will? Can I come in?"

[William Blake]

The morning had been lonely and boring so Will sat down and cut his palm making a new batch of ink to train on controlling his summons better. He sighed and winced as it hurt for a moment and then he just felt the warm trickle of his blood ."aah that is the sucky part of my gift but meh .. i survive " he whispered to himself and drew a ninja warrior with a giant blade that came to life from his special ink.

"oh awesome .. man i wish i could bring you too school and have you beat the shit out of those idiot jocks " he said softly and looked at his work when suddenly the voice of his mother chimed in " maaah . I'm busy .. hold on .. wait a bit " he tried to release the summon but he was unable too. "oh shit ... come on where can i hide you .. you're too freaking huge " he said and growled a bit

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia arched a brow. "Will, honey, what are you doing?" She balanced the tray and opened the door. "Will I ma-" She started as she walked in, looking up. "Oh my god!" She exclaimed in horror when she saw his palm bleeding, the tray falling from her hand and crashing onto the floor. "Will!" she exclaimed rushing to his side.

She didn't even seem to notice, or care for that matter, about the ninja. Just that he was bleeding. "Will, you explain yourself to me this instance!" she ordered, hands on her hips, eyes narrowed into blue slits.

[William Blake]

"mom .. no just wait .. don't come in here .. i .. aaahm .. I'm naked " she shouted in hopes that she wouldn't come in and find his little drawn friend over here, well at least it wasn't one of his naked cartoon babes this time.
"i ... aaahm .. mom .. don't worry its nothing big .. its just a little cut " he said softly and backed up to the wall as he didn't want to be near his mother when she was pissed.

"ahm .. its kinda hard to explain mom .. its just a cut and ahm I'm fine mom" he stuttered out and looked at the ninja and wasn't sure if she had noticed it it yet." mom what can i say "

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia looked at him. "Will, come on..please tell me what's going on...All I want to do is be a good mother." She sighed and sat on the edge of his bed, finally noticing the ninja. "What's this?" She asked, curiously, standing up and looking it over.

She looked at the drawing paper. "How did you do this?"

[William Blake]

He looked at his mother and sighed softly "mom you are a good mom .. dont doubt that .. its just its hard to explain and weird too ..a couple of years ago i discovered i could draw things with a special ink and they would come to life " he said as he sat down on his bed " i dont know how or why .. i just thought you guys had enough on your plates , than to deal with me being a freak "

He swallowed hard and sighed once more and ran a hand trough his messy hair " so i began to practice with it and see how far i can go with it .. you see big guy over there is one of my drawings , normally i can release the summon but today it didnt work .. i think i put too much blood in the ink "

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia sat back down beside him and gently wrapped her arm around his shoulders. "Honey, you're no freak. Don't ever think that." She kissed his head gently, running her fingers through his messy hair in a motherly way. "I'm sorry I haven't been around much," she said softly. "How about this weekend you and I go do something special? Just you and me. If anything comes up, I'll push it aside. I just want to spend time with my boy."

"It's amazing what you can do, really Will. I've never seen anything like it, it's wonderful." She smiled softly at him. "I mean it," she said, nothing but genuine honesty in her voice. "Why does it have to be blood though?" She asked. "I'm not so sure I like the fact you have to cut yourself..."

[William Blake]

Will sighed softly and looked at him " i feel like one .. shit at school im the biggest freak there is " he said softly and looked at his mother as she ran her fingers trough his hair " mom im not mad at you for it , i know there is a lot of crap going on and im proud of you " he smiled and nodded as she suggested a weekend just for them " id love that mom .. ahm how did you know you were in love?"

He blushed a bit as she complimented his gift " well you wouldnt have been so proud of some of the things ive used it for " his cheeks grew bright red as he though on his naked drawn lady friends. " thanks mom and i dont know why but its the only thing that works with the ink and drawings ..dont worry mom im not enjoying it exactly but it does give me a fighting chance if something were to happen and plus a bottle of ink lasts a good while unless i do a massive amount of summons .. thats what i call them by the way . "

[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia said, looking her son dead in the eyes, "Honey, my aunt and uncle tried to send me to an insane asylum when I was younger, even younger then you...after...after your grandparents...di-" She choked, looking away feeling the tears coming on. She didn't realize she hadn't told Alyss or Will that Jim Gordon wasn't their real grandfather. Neither of her children knew a few things about her.

She hurriedly composed herself, giving a shaky sigh. "You're just special, Mushroom." She told him. "They're only jealous because they don't have amazing superpowers like you." Amelia smiled at him. Because of her job she'd been killed, she didn't think he knew about that. She hoped he didn't, she didn't want him to worry about her when he should be worrying about school. "And I'm proud of you too, son." She told him truthfully.

She smiled faintly, "How did I know I was in love? I knew I loved him, your father, the day I was nearly killed while taking on some robbers...He didn't leave my side once, not even at the hospital. It's the little things that bring make you realize that you love someone. Sure, your best friend would move mountains for you, but would they step in the way and take a bullet for you? Your father's done that countless times..."

Amelia arched a brow at his comment about his gift. "William!" She scolded, "Are you telling me you've been you using your powers for sexual reasons?" Oh dear god, she thought, Where's John when I need him?

She sighed. "Well, try not to do it too often."

[William Blake]

Will sighed and listened to his mother and felt so angry when he heard that she was almost sent to asylum , his mother never belonged in such a place. " those bastards.. " he growled out and looked at him " huh .. but Grampa gords is still alive .. hmm mom there is something you aren't telling me ..well i always found it odd that you didn't have his last name " he mumbled out and hugged his mother tightly. " mom don't tell anyone i hugged you .. then they will be all jealous and want a hug too " he smiled softly.

" i know mom .. its just sometimes i get so angry and hurt ,, why is it always me they pick on ? i hate being the victim but i cant use my powers against them because it would be wrong " he said softly and looked at her. "good mom .. I'm glad " she said softly.

Will listened with interest as he wasn't sure what he was feeling for Emily but it was something there that gnawed at him, "so dad played hero back then too .. hmm he is one of those rare people .. i didn't think good people come around often" he sighed softly and looked at him as she talked about her and his dad.

Will blushed deeply as he looks at his feet , knowing she wasn't happy about his little slip up " I'm a teenage boy with hormones . I'm sure you or dad would do the same if you could at my age .. it was just a few times " he mumbled out softly."i wont .. not that i met Emily " he blushed deeply and sighed.
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[Amelia Raven Blake]

Amelia sighed softly and kissed his cheek gently, running her fingers through his hair in a motherly way. "Everything I went through, made me stronger, honey. It made me who I am today." She looked at him with gentle eyes of sapphire. She sighed, she had given herself away. "There's a lot of things you don't know about me, Will..." And then she told him. She told him how she had been born in France and how her parents had been killed in a car crash and how she had been sent to live with her aunt and uncle and how they were threatening to send her to the insane asylum after she screamed about seeing the future and how she was kicked out on the streets and adopted by Jim Gordon and everything else. Everything even how she had died on one of her missions. How John had died once. She wasn't going to hide it any longer. And after it, she had small tears dripping down her face.

She smiled faintly, "I wouldn't hug strangers if they paid me a million dollars, only you. Only my boy." She hugged him back tightly, kissing his head gently.

"I know it's hard, honey. Believe me, I know, but you've just gotta be strong, because you and I both know that you're so much better then they are. Because you have a bigger heart then they do," she put her hand gently on his heart, looking gently into his eyes. "No matter what you do or don't do, I'll always be proud of you, William, don't forget that."

Amelia said softly, "Every person has both good and bad in them, it's the part they chose to act on that really counts." Her dad, her real dad, had told her that once, Jim had too. It was something she had been raised believing.

Will's mother rolled her eyes and sighed. She ruffled his hair. "Oh Will, what am I going to do with you?!" She teased compassionately, her eyes glowing as she looked at him.

[William Blake]

Will just listened and sighed softly " i know it will make me stronger mom but i just wish .. sometimes i wasn't the one they picked on all the time . they call me gay for drawing . i cant help it i love drawing mom and girls . hah there is only girl I've met that isn't family that i don't want to cut off their tongues"he mumbled out. "i never knew those things mom .. I'm glad you can tell me now about it .. so you've been dead? is there a heaven?" he asked softly and sighed as he brushed her tears away " mom they would have been so proud of you "

"good mom " he smiled softly and looked into her eyes and sighs softly and looks up at the roof " mom ..i try to keep strong but sometimes i just want to run away to some far away place that i can be alone with my summons as company " he said softly ." you cant be proud of that .. i wonder if any of your friends had it the same way ?" he asked softly as he ran a hand trough his messy hair again.

"what if I'm more bad than good ?that i hurt someone and enjoy it ?" he really didn't want to end up that way but it was a possibility.He was scared to end up like that thing they call bane or the joker even. "mom if i ever go evil .. kill me .. please "

Will rubbed his eyes and smiled as she teased him and ruffled his hair, making his worries fade away for now but they were always gnawing at the back of his mind."Clint told me about women and showed me a mag .. and i just figured i would drew her but i used the special ink .. so i figured why not " he said softly and pouted.

[Amelia Raven Blake]

"Who says these things to you? I'll kick their asses!" said Amelia. She smiled faintly at him when he brushed away her tears. She shrugged at his question, "I don't know Mushroom...I was a ghost..." More tears spilled down her face at his words. "You think, Will? You think?" She looked at the ground, "You really think they'd be proud that I killed hundreds of people...innocent people?"

SHIELD Agent Sparrow looked at her son. "You can talk to me about anything, Will, anything, you hear me?" She kissed his head. "Anything." She looked at him. "I'm proud of you no matter what." She shrugged, "I didn't have many friends as a kid, I was home schooled and my aunt and uncle never sent me to school...they didn't think a girl like me deserved to have an education, they thought I deserved to be in the insane asylum..."

Amelia grabbed his hands, holding them tightly. "William, listen to me, you aren't more bad than good, I know you aren't. You are perfect, and you are my son. You won't end up a bad guy, Will, I promise you." She winced at his next words. "I'd rather die then kill my own boy." It was the truth, nothing less.

She smirked, "Looks like I'll have to have a talk with Clint." She chuckled, rolling her eyes.